Today was Gatsby's funeral. He died because he wanted to protect me, but I probably could have saved myself. Tom has money and people he knows in the government. I was shocked at first when Tom told Wilson that Gatsby was the driver but then I realized that it was the only thing to do. Wilson would have killed us instead!
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Tom told me he saw Nick in the city the other day. He said Nick seemed weird, something about not wanting to shake his hand. He told that Nick is moving away back to the West. I wonder why he did not tell me this himself. It is weird, Nick used to call me at least once every week. I wish I could have attended Gatsby's funeral too. I heard about it and I tried not being reached by Nick even though he kept budging. Maybe he though I wanted to go. I did. But I could bear the sight of him again. I never want to look back and see Gatsby behind me. I will be protected by my rich husband from all the troubles in the past if any were to come back to me. I thought Nick would have stayed here all along but I was wrong. Maybe it is the lifestyle here that makes it so hard to bear for Nick. He does not belong in the East, I knew that from the beginning. But I thought he would have at least notified me before he left. Or would have called to say goodbye to me. I heard that Jordan was engaged to someone else, maybe Nick is sad about that. After all coming East and marrying a rich and famous golfer is a big deal and something that every sane person would want to do. Looking to all the things that happened this summer, I can tell how stupid I was to even consider leaving all this back and going away with Gatsby. It was a rather interesting summer. But luckily I have come back to my senses and went back to my husband. I feel like this past few months have all been a dream and Gatsby was not even there.
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